For those who have seen my posts in the past I am now changing the format here so beware. K? I am not editing my language so I may make you blush like a sailor. I am so fucking sick of the fucking bigotry in this fucking state we called Indiana. Who in the fuck cares bout me and the Hoosiers Trans Community and I am so sick the death that they use excuse me when I say this the fucking bible against us and condemn us to hell for simply being ourselves. I am sorry that you feel so fucking uncomfortable when you seeing who you refer to as a fucking man in a dress but I am a woman you fucking idiot. I am expressing the internal gender that I identify as. If you have a fucking problem then leave me the fuck alone and go about condemning someone else. K? Talk to the hand the ears aren't listening applies here so leave me the fuck alone. Get it? Better hope so and plus there is no hell except the hell one creates here on earth. When one goes through tough shit here on earth now that is hell and that hell can either make one a better person or make them cynical but that hell is a place is more like a fairy tale that one uses to scare someone to live one's life on someone's terms which is utter bull shit. That story has been played to death and I am fucking tired of hearing it. Another story and I do mean story in the bible that I am so tired of being told is the flood I am sorry that story never happened either. Hell and The Flood story are only being told to use as a smoke screen to scare someone to live one's life on someone's terms. Another thing in the bible that is used to scare people is a person commonly referred to as Satan. I am sorry but a man going around in a red cape and pitchfork doesn't exist and surely doesn't go around telling one to do something against God. If you believe that shit then you are fucking crazy. It is one's desires that cause people to go against God and not someone we have called for decades Satan. Stop blaming someone that doesn't exist and blame yourself. You need to learn to take blame for your own fucking mistakes.The reason for all that is so I can say that these are the very fucking reasons that Indiana has the fucked up laws to make it hard for one that feels like me, one that is a girl trapped in the wrong body to transition. They know down deep that I truly suffer as a transsexual woman simply trying to live this so-called life to the best of my ability. Like for instance I am looking for a job and have to put down my legal name for legality purposes but I do not attach myself to that identity at all. They make it hard to change one's name legally to the name they identify as. Now I do not identify by my legal name which by the way is Gary Lynn Coldiron, Jr. but I simply identify as Sara Ashley Cole. That legal name is for a boy and I am no boy but a girl. I have always hated that name and forcing me to use that name is like cutting my arm off and with no medication. That just hurts me so very much you might as well be cutting off my arm with no medication because it cuts to the very core of who I am as a person. This is a male dominated society to which apparently it is founded on Christian Principles or should I say control freaks that use the bible as an excuse to control one's life. How Christ-Like is that hmmm? Let's see Christ came to this world to save the world not to condemn it, right? He came to set the oppressed of his day free and today the oppressed of our day is the trans community and I feel that if Christ were amongst us today he would set us free like the woman at the well whom back then they the society wanted to stone her to death because the kind of life she was apparently to them living one that they didn't agree to how she was living her life. She made them uncomfortable being married several times and living in what the Christian World sees as living in sin which is living with someone and not being married to them and being in a romantic kind of commitment. Now the word commitment is a unique kind of word which the world marriage is draped around. Being in a committed relationship entails so many different connotations to me. It can mean dating one person at a time and not straying from that person or it could mean that one is engaged to another and not going around that person's back or simply being married. Well, be committed to me in my case is being committed to live my life to the girl my heart has been telling me that I am and so transitioning to that very girl that I am is also a commitment and yet the Christian World is against any kind of commitment is appalling to me. What kind of God would be against commitment of any kind? That doesn't sound right at all. It is like they, society that is simply uncomfortable being around many kinds of commitment. I have friends who are in a gay committed relationship, ones that are in a lesbian committed relationship or how bout the ones that are in a poly kind of committed relationship. Now that I opened that can of worms to speak of that is one that they are extremely appalled by. To be committed to many people and all at once is so against their teachings of how to live one's life as. To them that is so vile of a way to live one's life. Having sexual relations with not only many people but of both genders now that is so unheard of way of living one's life that is so disgusting to them and plus sinful but that is judging and I do believe that judging is against God's commands I do believe.
But now to not get any more off topic that is just some of the ways they are and it needs to change. Not everyone agrees with their theology and they need to simply shut the fuck up. Those kind of people I do not want to associate with at all because they are so unChrist-Like. They make it hard for girls like me to live my life and on my terms. For me to live my life as the girl that I am I have to go through a grueling process of changing my legal name, and then there is the whole changing one's gender marker to the all important "F" on all of my legal documents. Indiana here makes you wait till you have "the surgery" SRS (Sex Reassignment Surgery) to let you change your gender marker. Now that is so old school making us wait to change our gender markers. Instead I want to get our lawmaker's attention and get them to get a therapist that we see to sign off that we are indeed the gender we identify as and simply sign off with a letter stating that as such and take it to all the bureaucracy and then have it officially changed and maybe even give a token fee to appease their wanting to profit from this and just maybe make more money for the state of Indiana instead of letting us die off all because we can't take the way that it is now through the means of suicide. They would rather for us to commit suicide which they see as a sin then simply be true to one self which they also see as a sin so they can simply be comfortable. They are the ones that are stopping progress in the what used to be known as " The Land of the Free." Now to step off my soap box. Thank you all for putting up with my ranting on Sara's Rants.
-Sara Ashley Cole
But now to not get any more off topic that is just some of the ways they are and it needs to change. Not everyone agrees with their theology and they need to simply shut the fuck up. Those kind of people I do not want to associate with at all because they are so unChrist-Like. They make it hard for girls like me to live my life and on my terms. For me to live my life as the girl that I am I have to go through a grueling process of changing my legal name, and then there is the whole changing one's gender marker to the all important "F" on all of my legal documents. Indiana here makes you wait till you have "the surgery" SRS (Sex Reassignment Surgery) to let you change your gender marker. Now that is so old school making us wait to change our gender markers. Instead I want to get our lawmaker's attention and get them to get a therapist that we see to sign off that we are indeed the gender we identify as and simply sign off with a letter stating that as such and take it to all the bureaucracy and then have it officially changed and maybe even give a token fee to appease their wanting to profit from this and just maybe make more money for the state of Indiana instead of letting us die off all because we can't take the way that it is now through the means of suicide. They would rather for us to commit suicide which they see as a sin then simply be true to one self which they also see as a sin so they can simply be comfortable. They are the ones that are stopping progress in the what used to be known as " The Land of the Free." Now to step off my soap box. Thank you all for putting up with my ranting on Sara's Rants.
-Sara Ashley Cole